Julian Kazmier
Love you grandma and miss you and need you more then ever again in my life I'm terrified of failing and terrified of succeeding and afraid if I don't do what's in my heart will I ever truly be free grandma and I know u want me to be free and u don't want to see me struggle and u want to see me love and laugh it's just so hard grandma life is hard without u and pple like u aunt amanda i got to meet they were very nice to meet my whole family up there and he even got to visit some spots you would have visited you should have seen me now I bet you're smiling up at heaven for me taking the leap to go up there that Little Italy place makes me think of you when I went up there to eat so now I know you're looking down at me and helping me along the way I don't know how I don't know why but it's just a feeling I love you and always will grandma you know I have a good heart I just sometimes have to do bad things in order to do good things I'm not happy or proud of it but I must do what I can to survive always surely you and God can understand that I want to go to the Philippines and I want to see my grandfather the man you married . I think it's important to know my heritage and to know my lineage because how can I improve as a person if I don't know where I come from and who I truly am.
